Beyond Instinct: (Not) Writing Like Weasels

In her much-anthologized essay “Living Like Weasels” Annie Dillard locks eyes and brains with a weasel, launching an essay on calling. Weasels teach us how to live, Dillard writes, embodying an instinctive mindlessness, all energies pointed toward their “one necessity.” One weasel latched onto the throat of an eagle and never let go, even in death, its skeleton attached to the eagle’s chest. The essay ends here:

“I think it would be well, and proper, and obedient, and pure, to grasp your one necessity and not let it go, to dangle from it limp wherever it takes you. Then even death, where you’re going no matter how you live, cannot tear you part. Seize it and let it seize you up aloft even, till your eyes burn out and drop; let your musky flesh fall off in shreds, and let your very bones unhinge and scatter, loosened over fields, over fields and woods, lightly, thoughtless, from any height at all, from as high as eagles.”  

It’s a stunning close to an inspiring essay. But the beauty of the language disguises the horror of the scene. The weasel latched onto the wrong bird. His actual death was not likely very poetic. As writers and as people of faith, we’re not as horrified as we might be: death is not our final fear, and we understand the larger metaphor of death. But we needn’t seek it out. There are so many ways to die as a writer already; I’d like to save us from an unnecessary demise or two with a few simple words:

Choose the right bird. When you discover you’ve chosen wrongly, let go.

This is a simple way of saying that as writers we labor under more than one calling, more than “one necessity.”  There is the calling to write, the sense of being appointed a wrestler with words, a storyteller, even a prophet at times. But there are callings as well to particular projects and subjects. When we don’t distinguish between the two, we’ll find trouble, maybe even death.

In the last twenty years I have let go of a number of essays-in-progress, articles, even book manuscripts. Despite seeking God’s direction—and feeling that I had found it, two book projects I felt very “called” to pursue, ended up withering. As each  atrophied, I latched on yet harder, spending costly attention and effort trying to revive them—to no avail.

I did not expect success to meet every writing endeavor, but some losses hit hard. We question our worth as writers; we question our very calling. But we often ask the wrong question. Rather than asking, “Am I really called to write this novel (this essay, this book) right now?” we often ask, “Am I really called to be a writer?”  In these moments, we’re not so much rising on the wings of eagles as we are devoured by our own insecurities and disappointments. We may even stop writing altogether. This is the second death—and the least necessary.

The weasel operates by instinct alone. We can do better. We can’t see into the future to know whether a project will ultimately succeed, but we can follow our given passions, testing them thoroughly with research, prayer, and rough drafts. If a project falters, as all seem to do at some point, we persevere until—-we cannot. Then, we pry ourselves loose and let it go.  Not easily, and never prematurely, but our bones will stay hinged, and our musky flesh will live to choose another subject, another day, one that may indeed send us soaring.

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14 thoughts on “Beyond Instinct: (Not) Writing Like Weasels

  1. This was perfect. So true. I’ve had to let go of entire manuscripts before, and start over with halfway completed ones. I needed this to know I’m not all alone here. Thanks 🙂

    • HI Heather—yes. And right now I am working on 2 essays that are killing me. Continue—or let go?? There is no shame in either. (But these two may simply require sleeping on … ) Also good to remind myself that letting go of one thing then frees us to write another . . .
      Thanks for reading—and writing!..

  2. Sometimes even those things we think were failures bare fruit in other ways. I’ve worked on things that helped me clarify ideas I use elsewhere. My current fiction manuscript helped me explain things about myself to my sister, through the characters, that I couldn’t have explained before. As long as you are following God’s call, He will make use of all your work, even what you think is failure.

    • Absolutely! So true. Nothing I have spent time on has been wasted. In God’s economy, all that we pursue from faith bears fruit. Thank you for that reminder!

  3. It’s an interesting image. My first thought of our “one necessity” was faith in Christ, which, of course, as you pointed out, should determine our writing projects as well as everything else in our lives. I’m saving this post for when I’m in need of encouragement in the future. Thanks!

  4. What a beautiful and graphic post. Nicely done. Thanks for reminding me to separate the project from the call.

  5. This is fantastic advice. I’m always saying that there can be a thin line between perseverance and stupidy and the Holy Spirit is the One we need to differentiate it for us! You’ve done a great service today!

  6. Thanks for this post. I’m currently evaluating everything I do, a regular procedure for me. I have to watch that I don’t go down any rabbit trails. Thanks for the reminder that I can turn back if I do.

  7. Fantastic post! We always hear messages such as “You can do anything you put your mind to!” “Believe you will succeed and you will!” “Hold on tight to your dreams!” —all without factoring God’s will. I believe He has his purposes for leading us to write, and that they are not ALWAYS so that we will be published. Seeking His direction and will is tantamount to TRUE success!

  8. This is a key concept to keep in mind, for sure, Leslie. I love the statement about God’s economy – it is reassuring and motivating at the same time. And it reminds me of the

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